Here's what she told reporters about her relationships with Graham, Jake, Vienna and Kasey now:
Was it that one moment with Graham that made you want to leave or was it a combination of things that had built up?
"It was definitely a build up of things. Being on the show last year and knowing what to expect, and then being on the show this year and not having one person being honest... The people I could really trust were Jackie, Ames and Jake. Having someone like Graham, who I thought was my really good friend, do something like that just tipped me over the edge. It wasn't worth me staying there any more and feeling the way I was."
Do you have any regrets about leaving the way you did?
"The one regret I have leaving is that I wish I'd spoken my mind a little more before I left, and told people what they are doing is wrong in every way. I wish I would have tried to make more of an impact and showed people you can play this game as an adult and in a strategic, morally right way."
You told Chris Harrison when you left that you weren't cut out for this game. Was it really so different to last year?
"It was 100 times crazier. Last year everyone was strategizing but they were doing it in a normal way. You knew who you could trust and couldn't trust and what side they were on and what advantages you had. This time, people were saying they were your friends and people you thought were your friends were going behind your back. It was just every bad quality you could think about in one house."
Do you think that's because they had watched the show and knew how to play?
"Yeah. I know Kasey and Vienna had a huge advantage beforehand living in LA and going to a lot of the Bachelor reunions. They formed these alliances weeks before the show and people like me, Jackie, Ames and Jake didn't have much of a shot. There really wasn't much we could do. It was just a really tough time this year."
Did you think you could be manipulative enough to win the prize?
"I had a strategy last year but I wasn't as strong as everybody else and wasn't able to fake... This year I was like, 'Yeah, I'm going to strategise, I'm going to do this differently!' But then I was even softer than last year! I had no shot but I'm blessed to have gone on the show and met people like Jackie and Ames because there are not many people out there like those people. Bless Ames's heart for leaving the way he did. I never imagined seeing that and I'm happy to be a part of something with them."
You were upset when Jake gave the date rose to Vienna. Do you think he was being honest about wanting to extend an olive branch or just trying to appear as a good guy to the viewers?
"I think Jake's whole point of going on the show was to do something good and be a bigger and better person. As much as I didn't agree with him giving her the rose, I understand that rose meant to him, 'I'm sorry for whatever. Can we be friends in this house? Can you stop telling everyone to hate me?' At that point not one person in the house liked him or gave him a chance because Vienna had rallied people up for weeks before the show to get them to think he was this monster. He just wanted to do something to break the fight between them. His strategy didn't work but he's genuinely one of the best people I've ever had the opportunity to meet in my life and I'm proud to say I'm his friend."
What is your relationship with Vienna and Kasey like now?
"I've always had a big heart for Kasey and respected and loved him. I think he is a good person and I feel bad that we don't have the relationship we once had. As for me and Vienna, we did talk in the house a little bit. I never received an apology from her but I did know we had to live in a house together and I didn't want to be enemies, so we were adult to each other. She didn't yell at me but she did make me feel uncomfortable a lot of times and she made Jake feel uncomfortable which made me uncomfortable. I wouldn't call her my friend by any means but I wouldn't call her my enemy. If I saw her I'd say hello but that's the extent of what her and I will ever be."
Are we seeing a fair edit of Kasey and Vienna?
"I think everybody has the good and bad in them. I think sometimes when there is money involved people can forget that their bad personality traits come out a little more. I think Kasey and Vienna just didn't care much about people's feelings and were more into winning than anything else and that's where they went wrong."
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Do you think all Vienna's negativity about Jake will backfire on her? It seems like some people in the house are already getting their fill of it...
"I think she just had too many weeks in advance of putting it in people's heads what Jake didn't do to her, or overexaggerating their relationship. I know that there were some ups and downs but what she made Jake out to be is completely false. If it was her strategy to lie about someone's character, then it's in everyone's heads, it's been drilled in there for weeks. Jake doesn't talk to anybody onThe Bachelor, he works a lot, he keeps to himself, and he went in there thinking he had a pretty good shot to make friends, but he walked out of there not even being able to make a friend because of the judgments already put on him."
Has anyone surprised you watching the show back?
"Definitely Graham. I still am surprised to this day over Graham because we were like best friends. Me and Jake are really close, but me and Graham were just as close, if not closer. We hung out all the time in New York, I always participated in his charity and did whatever I could to help him out. Being on the show and him talking about me and at one point even ignoring me and then voting me off... it's so hurtful to even stay in that house when a friend for a year and a half is doing that to you."
Have you reconciled now?
"Graham has reached out to me a few times and apologised. I do forgive him. He was a great friend of mine. I don't think we're going to be as close as we once were, but forgiveness is good."
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